Kafka

All the vile things coalesce,
segmented and fitted together.
limbs – sprawled asunder,
clawing at a sky hidden
behind walls of wood and brick
the screaming bound by form
hssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
ing until the mouth parts hurt,
the way the palm does-
one hand clapping;
not enough for an applause,
but enough to reprimand.

The back is not for laying anymore
one can only relax on all limbs;
on hands, legs and whatever are these.
The supine is panic and helplessness;
something the mind condemns vehemently.

From somewhere in the recesses
muffled by doors, walls, genetics;
a voice calls out to me-
Am I well?
Am I aware of the time?
Am I clothed?

Stabbing at the ceiling in six different places
in a posture that feels like death I
hsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
back.
No tears will come.

Metamorphosis

A cocoon houses secrets within
horrific with ambiguity
who I was will never be again
who I become is lost in abstract

What I will be must fight its way out
find strength that had never existed
move in ways that were once unnatural
force the undefined to be exact

I feel the seams needed to break out
the walls that throttle becoming thin
a world outside waits expectantly
the time approaches when I must act
but the walls of my home breathe with doubt
the world at its end as I begin.