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Exist

Exist within the existential crises.

Are you afraid of death, and the end to it all? 

I think that fear is a very reasonable response. We exist for such a tiny period of time and then we don’t. Death is a scary thing to come to terms with, even if you have beliefs in things like an afterlife.

I have found myself crying for hours because of this thing that I cannot avoid. Death is inevitable. Logically I should put it out of my mind entirely since my thinking about it will only burden me mentally and physically which in turn shortens my lifespan further.

Isn’t it interesting that the primary reason we are afraid of dying is that we have so much that we love in our lives, you don’t want it to end, but then waste time being afraid and sad which leads to not engaging with the things that we love. It’s amusing to think how counterintuitive that is.

Focus on what you can control and let the things that you cannot control go.

Don’t leave space for dread. Actively focus on the things that you love. Allow those things to fill that space. Utilize your time the best that you can so that, at the end of it, you won’t feel like you missed any opportunities to enjoy living.

Now Within Existence

“Don’t do this,
Don’t do this right now.”
“Now isn’t good?
Now isn’t the right time?”
“Time has nothing to do with it,”
“Time is relative.”
“Relative to what in this place?
Relative to… nothing?
Nothing makes sense,
Nothing seems to work.”
“Work on shutting up then,
Work on less talk, more action.”
“Action is what got us here,
Action broke us down to this.”
“This isn’t so bad.
This is at least a quiet place.”
“Place yourself in my shoes.”
“Place your hand here,
Here you can feel my heart,
Here is a sign of persistence.”
“Persistence ruined us.”
“Persistence to endure.”
“Endure? When is it enough?”
“Endure until we can no more.
More time is needed,
More information is out there.
There has got to be a way
There has got to be a purpose.”
“Purpose implies intent.”
“Purpose gives us goals,
Goals give us hope.”
“Goals pacify with data,
Data hides loss behind numbers.”
“Data can also keep us grounded.”
“Grounded! That’s rich.
Grounded to the fact that we’re dying?”
“Dying is not the word I would use.
Dying from what?”
“What ever it is this place is,
What would you call it?”
“It is like a purgatory I guess,
It is a waiting area with nothing to do.”
–
“Do you hear that?
Do you hear that sound?”
Sound rose out of the nothing,
Sound burrowed through the fibers of existence.
Existence gasped and collapsed
Existence found itself wanting
Wanting
Collapsed