My sneakers were made for lazy days for sidewalks and classrooms they fold over rocks like jerky slipping more often than catching.
They are quick to remind me I don’t belong here.
but the height makes me quicker still all the while still wondering…
If I die in this place who will find me?
Scaling the cliffside I look for rebellious roots terrified brittle limbs confident rocks eager to help a hand miles away my home is empty the sun is setting and my mind echoes…
His opponent – Dashed against the rooftops the victor floats away the punctuated fabric of their balloon strained in its ascent but the ascent is meaningless now. His opponent – Dashed against the rooftops becoming more distant with the passing moments yet closer to him now than ever before.
Further below their shared heart looks up from the earth blocking the sun with her free hand her face twisted like a bird caught in the strings the victor floating away.
We made tunnels beneath the trenches convenience saddles convenience. Innovations bound to conflicting desires, duty ever at the throat of survival; a war all its own.
Dead sounds, all around digging impatiently stopping only briefly to hear past the heavy breathing the tremors from outside and within beyond the fear; listening for digging.
Somewhere down here another crew exists just like our own; different uniforms but always like us, digging, listening.
I can’t help but hope are they as afraid as we? will their resolve snap like a taught frayed rope? I echo the answer known.
Either way we wind up here on our backs, peacefully or on our feet, terrified and blind holding a thread bare hope that they aren’t like us.
Listening, I hear rhythmic pounding muffled by earth geography, culture, language until it stops… listening for us, for me- this translates easily.
We start again in unison clawing at the earth feverishly to end this, to put it behind or above us stopping only for a hint of a moment. every few feet we calibrate on the other.
The dirt between us feels lighter now easier to swallow forgiving where we cannot be. The tension between us is metaphysical. Two fingers almost touching between sandcastle walls. It is ocean waves grasping at the shore hidden depths haunting the water’s surface.
When our pickaxe breaks through there is a moment of metallic harmony a crashing of symbols. Sparks fly like a flash of summer light in the dark the perfect place to meet.
The tunnels are too small to stand in too dark to see too cramped to breathe, it is struggle enough to kill another but this close to hell beneath the war it is all the world’s anxiety, despair, and cruelty rabid; unleashed. Some die. Some go on digging. all remain buried.
The air moves with deception those blue skies and soft clouds sing a sirens song only heard in the trenches; a tune that tells us of a home that will never again exist buried somewhere beneath the bodies. What semblance remained we dug away to keep us always below the horizon.
Up there in the fresh air terror travels on the breeze as easy as leaves with metal wings and fire to burn an anonymous generation. All things are destined for the ground; the real war is six feet below youth running through tunnels lamenting the tangible and intangible losses; The death of innocence. The death of the world they knew. death itself.
Still, the sky is blue the clouds are soft they sing though it is silent a hint at the end up there silence until the shells come.
It’s the cheapest model but they don’t know that the wood is nice and sharp the finish is matte black the inside is frilled silk but empty otherwise. Once it is filled no one will see what there in resides. All that is left are the remains on the outside.
Beware the soul that has been broken open, a good soul should not break so easily beneath the weight of words that are spoken. The mouths in this place will move ceaselessly, let it be silent violence that breaks them. There is rightness to that kind of ending the weaker mind can be quickly condemned but the soft flesh was made for expending. Exalted are those who, in their trauma discover that pain is tranquility for the mind is the essence of Brahma trapped inside the body’s fragility be not afraid when the body succumbs for there is greater suffering to come.
Someone is always behind the curtain don’t listen to the lies they might tell you the roots of words can be twisted askew but you can of this one thing be certain someone is there to exploit your burden to change the dynamics of all you knew just to find reasons to make you subdue as if consumed by some violent sermon. They cannot fight these battles on their own so of course they beguile us with their charms with more wealth than we could have ever known because the best way they can avoid harm is to offer us an interest free loan thus consigned in their name to take up arms
The youth – factory farmed to keep corpses alive the impoverished deprived
Lives – are always ending for those we should be spending.
On the knifes edge of gray sirens call out through the fog the sound is everywhere yet always running away.
A dog barks an angry snap to it – hunger the pads of its feet slap heavy rain against the concrete if not for the nails scratching with every lift.
The siren is blaring it drowns out the dog save for the scratching Thick fog like white darkness I know not where to run Only that I must to life – to death my footfalls drown in the sound of that distant siren.
Everything is in this fracture the destruction manufactured a contracture thus shattered trades flexibility for pain the nerves like broken glass made rain the mental plane left tattered.