I want to scream
to yell out against the wind
to accost the world before me
    condemn those responsible
    curse myself too,
I can’t.

I want to rage
to lash out against that stone wall
to become violence upon the leeches
    take by force my fair share
    fight for life until death
I can’t.

I want to collapse
to fold on myself in despair
to make myself small
    diffuse into the static background
    become less than what is needed
I can’t.

I want to live honestly
to breathe the fresh air of clarity
to rest on the laurels of defined purpose
    move through the world without restraint
    act as the situation dictates
I can’t.

I can’t in this climate
so I’ll just wait
…